This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed,
and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not
going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel
worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you
know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't
think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it
feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have
hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part,
you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and
normally the ones you love the most.
And then, after a few weeks, you finally
feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside
that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to
where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but
really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again.
It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one
understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are,
because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is
different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday
now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this.
And the feeling
starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because
you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're
to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many
nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear
of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not
helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them
in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally
pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and
your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back.
Everyone says,
"It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t.
And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that
people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that
everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know
you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for
them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And
then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this.
At
last , Sit and pray , ask our god (Allah) because HE the only one could help
you to solve everything..
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